Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Focus shifting


Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. -- Robert Brault

Some days, when my eyeballs begin to glaze over after hours at the computer, I tear myself away and head over to our local park for a walk.

It's a small, quiet park, and at most, I run into one or two other people there. I love the frenetic interaction of other people, but I also cherish solitude, especially during these years as a mother where time alone is precious and rejuvenating.

No matter how many times I’ve been to this park, I always see new things, whether it’s the time of day and the sunlight, or my current frame of mind. Today I was completely fixated on color and textures.

I feel changes coming. It's like the electricity in the air before a storm. There are many factors in my life that are, for lack of a better description, coming to a boiling point. I think this was my mood today while I walked through the park.

I love change. Sometimes I crave change. I also work really well under pressure, or when I'm pissed off. I think it’s exciting to move across the country, or change jobs, or just pull myself out of my normal routine – but can’t just jump anymore, now that I have a three-year old daughter.

So for the time being, I just feel really, really antsy. :)

Maybe I'll shave my head, or paint a wall. Today it was just about getting outside and enjoying what was already there.





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